boy stories with fake names

ok, well atlast i'm going to write about the boy trash stories i told you before this post. so where does this story start? hmm.. not sure. but i'll tell anyways. and no worries, cause all the names are fake (inspired by celebrities) and if you know who they are, please please keep it to your self.

so after i broke up with william beckett i had this HUGE crush on a guy called kris allen and i knew that he liked me too, cause he told me. we didn't go out or anything cause he's really close to william beckett. one day i though it's been along time since i broke up with william beckett and i still like this kris allen dude. so i asked william beckett if it's ok if i like kris allen and go out with him, and he said it was ok and stuff. and we both were so glad that he was ok, but like before we started to be together there were going to be these exams, so we wanted to wait so we could focus. but before i knew it, kris allen asked this girl out and there a couple now. surely i was upset and actually till now, we never talk. it's ashame. but the girl kriss allen is going out with, is such a b**** so i'm kinda like... "WHAT??!" but what can i do?

oh well, i thought that i would be upset about things for along time. i cried for awhile after knowing all that. but as i was recovering from that, my real old friend frank iero became close to me again. we called eachother, texted, chatted and things. as time went by, he told me that he always had a thing for me, and i admitted that i didn't but now i kinda do. so we dated for around.... only 2 weeks. he was such a playboy (i knew that before i dated him, so i knew it wouldn't last), he didn't talk to me for 4 days. it was like "??" but... oh well. it was funny, cause i broke up with him like a day before, then he texted me the next day that we're over. HA HA HA! and he's telling his ex that he broke up with me. so what ev! i don't care. he's an ass.

aaaaaaaand now? how am i? hmm... well i have this new boyfriend matthew perry he's very nice and things. but... i'm his first gf, so things are a little weird sometimes. the thing is it's the beginning. so let's just hope things will get so much smoother soon!

that's all for now. i'll update soon, i have a 2 month holiday so you can expect more from me.

Long time no write [twitter]

hey guys! been like ages since i write, and i have a good explanation, i had non stop exams. only two more days left, YEY! but only today that i have to really have to study. wish me luck? cause after that, holliday for 2 damn months, and i only need to go to school for graduation! weeee!

well, i actually have nothing but boy trash stories to write about. cause that's the only issues i usually have. so i will find time to write about it in my next post for sure :) i'm just writing this to tell you guys that i'm still alive and have a twitter now and i update that non stop! so please do follow me
xx

emotional wreck

emotional wreck sounds like the word to describe me now. i'm actually not sure if i'm happy, sad, ok, good, or anything! honestly, i need to straighten my life, but i can't cause of mu DAMN SCHOOL SCHEDULE! JEEEEEZ! i'm soo sick of school, i can't wait till it ends, then the holiday before graduation. but honestly i'm actually not sure i can handle an empty summer. the thought of not going to brazil or england is killing me. and the other thing is that i might be going somewhere where i would do try my best to AVOID! aaaaaaaaaah.

and and to make things worse before the exams, family issues kick in. it's horrible! i don't know how to end it (surely i want the best) and how we would react. i still haven't replied anything cause i'm not sure what to say. i know the truth would be the best, but honestly, the truth is too long and to risky. i'm not sure what to do, maybe i'll just lay down low for these weeks.

after all those drama, the worse comes again. boy problems. i always like him (not sure why) but somehow i don't want him to be my bf, but i really like him. and i hate it seeing that he likes another girl, even though i know he's such a playboy. MAN! why are boys and girls so different? it amazes me, how dumb i can be. how stupid of me to like him. and so now, i'm trying to forget him by trying to like my old crush. accept one problem, phone issues and meeting issues. we never meet and it's so hard to text these days. and to be honest, i can't focus on my studies fully if i don't have anyone to like (VERY WEIRD!). oh well...

i hope everything will workout though.... i need you isa, now! please, if you read this, email mee!

xoxo, nad

how my list is going so far

there are so many things going on, for god damn sakes! from boys to school to first experience. it's going loco, my life. i'll put it in a list so it's easier. and maybe next time i'll explain

1. i cut my hiar --> it became bob
2. i went to the dentist for the second time in my life
3. i had a filter in the dentist
4. i met someone in the dentist, and was mostly surprised
5. exam month is this month
6. none of Brazilians are talking to me
7. haven't talked to isa since foreverrr!
8. i don't think the guy i like, likes me anymore
9. he is texting me back, but his/my phone has issues
10. i can't download ebuddy on my phone
11. haven't met my dad since 2 weeks ago? and maybe make that 1 month?

so far, that's all the things i can remember what's going on, sooo i'll write again when i actually do. see ya!

down with love sounds like the answer

ok, so ATLAST i broke-up with the guy. it was a struggle, because he really didn't want to, and i ended up not replying any of his texts. i know it's mean, but honestly, man, get a life. oh well :)

so now, what's next? not sure. the horrible thing is actually that i have a feeling that i'm still in-like with some of my ex'es. "shoot" i tell my self. because the best bf's ever, i have let them go. so for them to be replaced. yea.. hard. and now, all i can do is act like i'm down with love, when i'm actually, so so not! wonder what i will do? could i keep this costume on? or am i going to burst out, and let my face fall on the ground? damn. this is hard.

yet, while all that love thinking is going on, i still have my exams going on. i'm doing so much better than i did. it's not the best i can do, but atleast i'm going up-up-up, right? well just wish me luck that i can juggle all this about

boy talk

ok, i guess i'm stuck with this guy that i'm not a fan about. and i don't know how to say to him "sorry, you're not the guy" in indonesian and yet a nice way. cause as a friend, he's ok, but as more, UUH! no thank you baby. so i'm not sure when i'll break it to him, but when i do, i'll update you

and to make things worse, i like another guy, since..... FOREVER! i knew this guy for a while now. and firstly, i thought he was a pretty face, then as i got to know him, he was one of the funniest guy ever! he could beat me from being me, it was impressive. and you could say we became close and started to admit things to eachother. we always thought we would end-up being together, and now..... we're no where. he always blames me because i have some friends that are boys. and i blame him because he is secretly dating (he's a womanizer, as you can say). now.... i'm falling hard for him again. why? is he really the one i like? or is he just a pretty face that i adore?? oh god, help

regrets.

well these days i've been seeing so many people doing what they love to do. and damn it, i want that! it's been such a long time i took extra classes that i love and passionate about. those things that i saw was : javajazz, acoustic night, yusuf obelet and so many more (if you don't know what they are, there all music concerts and they weren't being paid to do it. they do it because they love to)

the last time i did extra classes that i was passionate about was around 2 year ago ? it was hip-hop class. god, i miss that. and maybe guitar lessons ? (but my dad was a better teacher than the stinkin teacher was). but now, all i want is to do is do dance lessons and vocal lessons. (i'm not good in singing, but it's so much fun) as i have learned that hip-hop dancing, is crapping hard!! i'm going to take jazz lessons instead. it's so cool ! and maybe rather than vocal lessons, maybe a band? hahaha, dreaming a little high here

oh well, what ever i choose, i just don't want to have this feeling again next year. i just wish this year will end out great and i wouldn't regret anything, again.