hard to say it out

These days have been interesting. It's hard to explain from where it started and when it can end. from school problems to home problems to just how lonely i sometimes feel. it's all in my head, i think

let's start with school problems. well it's not actually a problem, it's just that these 3 weeks i'll be busy like hell studying, cause i have mid-term exams. i must say, that i am not good at being focus all the time, so it's going to be hard. so the program for the exam is, on the 4th-5th of december i exams, on the 6th-9th i have holiday (idul adha), and back with the exams on the 10th-12th of december. then because i'm in the last year in JHS, there is something called tryout, and that's like an-exam that will be on the 15th-18th of december. then, atlast i get my report card on the 19th! so wish me luck for that? thanks

after all that studying, i thought i could have a rest. but nooooo, i have to host my brazilian friends here for 3 weeks, from the 20th of december - 13th of january. and while there here, i have to go to school too. so i have no idea how to balance everything out. aaaaaaand while there here, my friend from malaysia is coming from the 3rd of december - 30th of december,  so i have all that to juggle !! i have no-idea how i'm going to do this all

well that was the future talk, now let's talk about how i'm feeling (typical girls talk). so it's kinda hard to say how i'm feeling right now actually. cause i'm kinda having a little problem sharing how i feel to people, accept to my ex. and he already knows so much of my problems, so sometimes i miss just talking to him, cause only he will understand. but there is apart of me that doesn't feel right talking to him, because he broke-up with me, and well...... there are more facts, but i don't think i should say. so sometimes i just do a fake smile, or something to get through it all. but one thing that i just wish, that even though we broke-up, i hope it doesn't mean we can't be friends....

so far, that's all from me, lot's of emotions on this blog, soo... yea... see ya :)