i'm looking for you

it’s not the type of person that i’m looking for,

it’s not the fame i’m searching for,

it’s the the feeling that i want the most.

the feeling of being needed around,

the feeling of being missed everyone time you part,

or even just the thought of i could just be reason for you to keep on going, because you are my reason.

that is what i’m looking for

Guaraná Antarctica

god! i've been missing icib since forever. to be honest, i think i can't get over it. it's like a horrible karma you know, when you think it's all done, it comes back in the most un-wanted way. grrr.. i get so annoyed when i miss them. even though i love them too much.

and as you know it is idul fitri, so i had a family gathering here in my house. it was... full. and then we had these sodas and foods that i never tried. it reminded me so much of Brasil somehow. and when they left i googled "Guaraná Antarctica". and i got this from wikipedia :

Guaraná Antarctica is the most popular guaraná-flavored soft drink in Brazil, created in 1921 by Pedro Baptista de Andrade for Companhia Antarctica Paulista, now part of Anheuser-Busch InBev. The drink is also available in Portugal, Spain, Honduras, Denmark, Switzerland, parts of the United Kingdom and the United States. The drink is produced only in three countries - Portugal, Brazil, and Japan. It is the second soft drink brand most sold in Brazil, behind only Coca-Cola, and absolute leader in its segment. Currently, it is ranked among the 15 brands most sold in the world.

i feel like saying "GIMME GIMME!" when i look at it. GOD! i hope go to brazil again, i miss them to much to die before meeting them again. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
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True Quotes

right now i'm kinda hurting cause of some guy. i know it's like.... wth?! but, it hurts, somehow. i wish i could find someone

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it’s clear that you don’t feel the same way for me. the problem is that as much as I can’t force you to love me, I can’t force myself to stop loving you

No man is rich enough to buy back his past

I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had

If love is so important to have that one doesn't want to lose it, why is it when we find true love we often don't notice it?

It takes only a minute 2 get a crush on someone, an hour 2 like someone, and a day 2 love someone, but it takes a lifetime 2 forget someone.

p.s i agree with all these quotes and i feel it all now

16th

today was kinda fun. i woke up early morning and went to citos to meet up with some people and did a photo shoot in a junkyard. it was actually fun! and we got some pretty good shots too. honest! the only bad thing was that we had to pay quite alot to just be there, grrr... and here are some pics







those we're just afew pics we took from a 1000 pictures. THEN! we went back to the mall by walking half way (which was new for some of us). it was a memory i will never forget! when we got to the mall, we went to J.CO and i had a drink and some of us had a..........thing. HAHA! well after that things happened, which i regret.

BUT! some of my friends saved me and picked me up from that mall to another mall. and i met up with some of my best friends EVER! god i miss them. i really wish i could stay longer. I had to go early cause my mum had this thing with helping kids who had no parents.

and now? well... i'm not in the best mood.

Picnik

this is a website that you can edit pictures online, and it's so much fun! i must say, it doesn't beat looklet but it's as fun! so do check it out. here are some pics i edited on it
what do ya think?? if you like it please do check it out :)

sentence of the day

If you make me alive, then why is waiting for you killing me?

Night Of Sins

Saturday night at a mall (god, soooo "cool"). i don't do this anymore. i'm not bothered going to malls at saturday night, but tonight was like my friends birthday. So she wanted to pay for dinner, and that was awesome (cause of the good food)

Then when we're eating, my other friend asked us if we wanted to go and *beeeeeeeeeeeeeep* and we did. and we thought we we're just going to do *beeeeep* but we ended up trying a few other things too. i'm even still in shock with my self that i'm like this. it's just not me!

i guess i'm not that good girl after all
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i need him, NOW!

as you know i'm like searching for a boyfriend. and yes i'm in the desporado part now! i really want one, sooooooo bad! grrr... it's getting on my nerve.

but (as you know) i don't want one of those fake ones. i want someone who can be with me, i mean, really spend time with me. not just texting & calling shit.

god! i need a guy

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How is high school?

what a normal question. uugh, getting sick of it. it's not that i i hate it but it's like, everything is so different. from friends to the subjects.

not to brag, but i'm pretty impressed by myself about the grades i'm getting. i never thought i could be so serious in class and work that hard at home. i hope on the 16th of october, my mum will see how hard i've been working and hopefully will give me something :) but it's pretty getting on my nerve that i have like 2-3 exams a day (sometimes). i hope i'm going to pass this year with quite good grades (Y)

and now friends, wow, my new friends are.... unimaginable. that's all i can say for now

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a new someone

as you guys know i'm in HS and it's stressing me outt! and it's kinda making me a little crazy. but like, what i've been trying to find these days is a boyfriend ( real one! no only texting and those shits, but someone who is there for you, and can be with you ). it's veryyyy hard finding one. i'm not close to anyone these day, and i haven't found anyone attractive enough

AXCEPT! i actually found someone that i really like. i mean like, really-really-like. he's actually an old-friend and i never actually thought that i would ever have this crush on him, but like the last time i saw him... i was like "daaaamn boy" HAHA. but really, he's so cute and i really want to get to know him again. i hope he feels the same, but... if he doesn't, it's good enough that we can be friend :D

and if you're reading this : i love you, i always have, but this time it's just more than friends. and i really want to get to know you better! please, never loose our friendship, EVER! cause you are one of the best (d**** b** > remember?)

xx, nad

HighSchool ?

soooooo sorry i haven't been updating. the holiday was soo... "fun" and i was busy, and now i'm back at school. i'll tell you how it goes!

so i'm in High School now. interesting right? well... not really. i'm kinda upset. i mean, it's really hard. i have to get above 70 average, get new friends and yet keep smiling and being joyful at home. what a job for me.

mostly i'm pretty bummed cause all my close friends are gone. i cry alot, cause i miss them. and like... it's harder now cause my ex bf is in one class with me. and i'm playing with people i never actually thought of even smiling to. you know? it's going so... unplanned. and the subjects are like... FUCKING SHIT! you know?? uughhh.

but the only good thing there is my old friends dennis, izzati, putri, clarissa and anggi. and they are the only people who are actually making me want to go to school, eventhough we're in one class. UGH! it's pretty fucking shit so far.

i'll keep ya updated on if i'm alive or not -_-

Felt like dying cause of a cold

i was really sick this week, i mean not exactly a week. so here is the story, on Wednesday i went to citos [it's a mall in Jakarta, Indonesia] to get a top for the party the next day. i was there with two of my friends, and one of them just recovered from this really bad cold. so we finished shopping, then when i got home, i couldn't stop coughing. i couldn't even sleep properly cause i was coughing so badly. it was horrible.

the next morning my mum gave me 3 meds. it was like "this is your morning vitamin, and this is your night med. and the cough med is for 3 times a day, got it??" and i was like... "aha.." let's say i wasn't the biggest joy that day. and then cause i still really wanted to go to the party (still) so i went to my friends house [even though i was feeling very crappy] and then when i got there i was feeling a little headachie but i was ok. then as it got more and more to the day [around 3 to 5ish] i felt really fucked up! really! i wanted to die. but then my friends treated me to a salon and we went to the party. the amazing thing is i was OK at the party.. weird right? and at the sleep over too.

so as the next day came. i was ok for the morning, couldn't stop coughing again though. but i wen't back from my friends house and just couldn't feel anything. it really was horrible. and then my mum brought me to the doctor and then i got proper meds. and now, i'm not 100% better, but i'm much better now. and guess how many meds i have?? not 5 but 7! for just a cold. i know, LOTS!

i hope i get well soon. and i hope my friends will have a lovely time in their new school. i'm really upset about us moving schools. it really makes me cry sometimes. i hope we won't lose contact anytime soon. i love you guys to much to let you go now. cause we've been with eachother too long, to let it go just like that :) best wishes
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life is a "bundle of joy!"

well as you know i'm a girl with amazing powers of emotion. i think they call us, teenage girls. it's common. as anyone about it, and they will go "ooh... that" or like "i'm sorry you have one of those". honest, no one in the world would want to be stuck with a teenage girl, maybe accept a teenage guy [which are usually hot. lol]

so my life so far is complicated [surely everyone knows that by now]. i always have this hate-friendly relationship with my mum and amazingly complicated friendship with my friends right now. i'm not sure where i'm standing in both of those relationships. i guess [as i've said before] the HS pressure is getting to every single one of us. surely no one admits it, but it looks like it. so so clear.

while all this shittingly stuff are going on, i have more bad news! i've lost SO MUCH WEIGHT! i mean.. i use to want to lose weight. but now, i'm not thinking of loosing weight, then suddenly i lost 4 kg! 4 FREAKIN KG! for me that's like ALOT! this is kind of worrying for me, but i hope it's nothing serious.

from all that crap, one thing that i'm mostly worried of is this thing we have in indoensia called CLBK [Cinta Lama Balik Kembali, right?] meaning : falling in love with an old lover. yeah.. i'm scared of that. i'm not saying that i'm falling in love with anyone, but i'm just worried that it would happened. and it's so forbidden! there are 2 reasons why it is forbidden, first, he's taken, second, i'm taken. so... stop now? well... i'm not planning on anything, i just hope we could be friends like we were, nothing more. cause last night, i can see that you've changed. WHY ARE PEOPLE CHANGING????

talking about changing, i bet my cousins in england has changed alot! i miss them so much, and ofcoures the rest of the family too. well, that's all from me now. gonna clean up my room now [mum's idea], tchau!
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friends and foe ?

i bet you all have had friends problem, who hasn't right? it's not that i'm dishing on someone. but i'm confused. who are real friends? who isn't? i feel like everyone are my friends, but like..... who accepts me for who i am? it's hard to know if you don't really talk

as we all know, human beings are not perfect and so for that it's hard to know what is what. i know it's hard to understand what i'm writing about, but i'm just questioning on somethings. and totally scared on telling anyone, cause like..... UGH! i can't really talk here anymore.

i guess it's just the pressure of going to HS with new people and losing my friends. so now i'm all "uugh.... what to do now?" mode. i really hope i'll find new, good, amazing friends. and won't lose contact with my best friends now [nindya, maitri, and hana] -- cause there the ones that will move.

oh well, let's hope everything will workout. and btw, i have a tumblr now. i made it to make a point to my friend for like being a internet addict. so in my tumblr it's all about my music, movies and idols and this blog is for my personal things.

xx, nad

my youtube

hey guyyyyys! well as i told you, i was back from puncak. and over there i made a film with my friends. i just want you all to check it out :



thanks guys, appreciate the love.
xx

I GRADUAED FROM JHS!

say hello to miss "high school". HELL YEAH! i graduated. what a day that was man, i nearly cried when the principal was telling us who graduated. but when he told us on the 20th of June 2009 at 10.00 am "SMP Islam Al-Izhar tahun 2008-2009 angkatan XV LULUS 100%" meaning : this years JHS passed 100%! when i heard that, i screamed so loud! it was such a huge relieve!

and then the night came, my graduation. it was weird cause we had to wear kebaya. and i looked like..... crap! as you can see. my hair was like.... ass! but it's ok. it's the memory i guess that's important? well there is something called NEM in indonesia, and i got 31,75. for people that is badd! so i don't really tell people but, what can i say?? i never got a >30 [max is 40 btw]

that night was very sad, so i was emotional. it was like the last time i saw everyone [my year] in one place. maan, gonna miss them. they might not be the most perfect bunch of people, but i was with them for 3 years, and for some 10 years. and now some of us are going separate ways. and XV will not be with the same people. new people will come, and go. and even my ex is gonna be one school with me! weird, huh??

oh well, after that day, i had to wake up early to go to puncak [it's a hill around 2 hours from jakarta]. we were hoping we would get there for 2 hours, but it took us 9 DAMN FREAKIN HOURS! the traffic was CRAP! theeen we got there and just hanged around, and on the last day.... we went to safari! SOOO DAMN COOL!

so it was sooo fun, and now i'm SUPER tired. so i'll write more when i feel better? ok then, byt guys
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GRADUATION TOMORROW!

well as you know i'm in Junior High School in Jakarta, Indonesia. and tomorrow on the 20th of June 2009 everyone in the 9th grade will know if they pass! i'm sooooooo freaked out! i don't know if i'll pass, i think i might die if i don't. but i got to think positively now, and think that i will pass.... oh god! please god! help me

here in jakarta, we always have a huge ceremony for graduations [i think they have it everywhere too] and we [the girls] have to wear kebaya [traditional indonesian clothing] and for the guys a suit. and today we did a rehearsal [without the dress up though] and it went.... ok. you never can expect alot from those. they just tell you what to do, and that is "sit still, smile, act appropriate because everyone's eyes will be at you" and so on. it's not exactly like that, but the main point of them [the teachers] blabbing was that.

after 1 or 2 hours of rehearsing nothing! i went to my best friend's house with another best friend of mine too, and we took her laptop and went to McDonald and eat like crazy and used the free WiiFii there. it was fun! we were full as crap though! but even so, we walked all the way back and lot's of guys on motorbikes said like "hai cewe!" meaning: "hey girl" witch was just... EW! but we had so much fun walking home. then when we went back, we were so tired we just played with garage band [best thing ever made!] ahahha.

well that's all from me, i'm STARVING! gonna find something to eat. wish me the best for tomorrow? please? thanks!
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Skins

so have you ever seen skins? i'm not talking about the thing that's on your body, but the series on tv. it's a british series where there is lot's of PG stuff, from the action to words. but it's such a good drama thing! my friend actually told me about it, she said "hey nad! try seeing skins, it's good! you'll like it" so i did check it out. now i'm addicted to it. the hard thing is i have to watch it on youtube, so it's like.... series 1 episode 1 part 1 sort of thing. doesn't take long to download, but it's crapping tiring, cause i video only is 9 minutes or less.



it's really cool, cause there is a gay dude (who is awesome! and very cute), a total playboy-jerk (who is HOT!), a wrong muslim (who lost his virginity with a Russian no one and doesn't agree with gays), a no-eating-unhappy girl (who i feel sorry for), and so much more. so much drama in one school. it's great joy! hahaha. and makes me wanna talk british 24/7.


Tony --> Nicholas Hoult

Maxxie --> Mitch Hewer

that's all from me, now gonna watch episode 8 (i know, just started.)
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my review

well tonight i watched this film (again) 'The Notebook' with my mum. it's was weird at first, but when i got in to it again, i though "huh, not that bad watching this film with her"



so i thought this film is sooo touching! you know, when i first saw it, i was soo into it, as in like... i contacted my summer love bf. i wrote that he would always have a place in my heart. and i started to cry. but when i was watching it, it didn't really get me, you know? it was sad, but didn't hit the spot.



on the other hand, last night, i saw 'marley and me'and i was like a baby crying! i had to hold it in though cause my mum was a sleep right next to me. but like.. i like the film! jenny and john (was it?) is such a an amazing couple! i wanna find my partner. oh well. but first when i heard he died, i cried, THEN! when i was patrick cried, that's when the fireworks started. MAN! there good.

well that's all the GREAT movies i've watched so far. i hope to see startreck sometime soon. and i'll try to write more often and put pics too.
xx

21st day of the holiday

well i have 2 months of holiday. 1st month is like the holiday till graduation, and then 1 more month of holiday after graduation! wee. fun fun? maybe. so far, it's cool. there are days that was great, and there are days where i can't wait to get over with.

so far i what i have done is : gone to dufan (theme park in jakarta) with friends, gone to friends house, having friends come over to my house, gone to bali, done karaoke with friends, watched 2-3 films in arow, did a photoshoot and been online! hmm... does it sound fun? well, some were and some were ok.

what i just noticed and i should of noticed this, is that i am not going to go to the same school with all my friends and that the surroundings will change too. so i'm REALLY REALLY bumded about that. crap. it's hard to accept it though, but it's the truth. and one thing i'm REALLY scared of is graduation! i hope i pass. if i don't, i think i will kill my self! ugh ugh ugh

ok, enough stressing out nad! enough! now, i guess sad news? hmmm... well i miss isabella gordano soooo much. i miss huging her and talking to her :( and i haven't really seen/talked to my bf for a while, cause when i went back from bali he went to bali with my year. and one more thing that can top of this cake, my dad is going to england without me again! SO JEALOUS! damn. it's been, what? 2 years since i met my cousins. so i will have to wait till next year to meet them and hopefully isa too in england. MAN! so many people are away from me, i miss them <3 <3

the other thing i noticed tonight, so many of my privet stories are here. and the world can read it. hmmm... this is... weird. but i like writing on this blog :D and i'm really sorry that i blab too much here, but where else can i write like this? haha.

xx

boy stories with fake names

ok, well atlast i'm going to write about the boy trash stories i told you before this post. so where does this story start? hmm.. not sure. but i'll tell anyways. and no worries, cause all the names are fake (inspired by celebrities) and if you know who they are, please please keep it to your self.

so after i broke up with william beckett i had this HUGE crush on a guy called kris allen and i knew that he liked me too, cause he told me. we didn't go out or anything cause he's really close to william beckett. one day i though it's been along time since i broke up with william beckett and i still like this kris allen dude. so i asked william beckett if it's ok if i like kris allen and go out with him, and he said it was ok and stuff. and we both were so glad that he was ok, but like before we started to be together there were going to be these exams, so we wanted to wait so we could focus. but before i knew it, kris allen asked this girl out and there a couple now. surely i was upset and actually till now, we never talk. it's ashame. but the girl kriss allen is going out with, is such a b**** so i'm kinda like... "WHAT??!" but what can i do?

oh well, i thought that i would be upset about things for along time. i cried for awhile after knowing all that. but as i was recovering from that, my real old friend frank iero became close to me again. we called eachother, texted, chatted and things. as time went by, he told me that he always had a thing for me, and i admitted that i didn't but now i kinda do. so we dated for around.... only 2 weeks. he was such a playboy (i knew that before i dated him, so i knew it wouldn't last), he didn't talk to me for 4 days. it was like "??" but... oh well. it was funny, cause i broke up with him like a day before, then he texted me the next day that we're over. HA HA HA! and he's telling his ex that he broke up with me. so what ev! i don't care. he's an ass.

aaaaaaaand now? how am i? hmm... well i have this new boyfriend matthew perry he's very nice and things. but... i'm his first gf, so things are a little weird sometimes. the thing is it's the beginning. so let's just hope things will get so much smoother soon!

that's all for now. i'll update soon, i have a 2 month holiday so you can expect more from me.

Long time no write [twitter]

hey guys! been like ages since i write, and i have a good explanation, i had non stop exams. only two more days left, YEY! but only today that i have to really have to study. wish me luck? cause after that, holliday for 2 damn months, and i only need to go to school for graduation! weeee!

well, i actually have nothing but boy trash stories to write about. cause that's the only issues i usually have. so i will find time to write about it in my next post for sure :) i'm just writing this to tell you guys that i'm still alive and have a twitter now and i update that non stop! so please do follow me
xx

emotional wreck

emotional wreck sounds like the word to describe me now. i'm actually not sure if i'm happy, sad, ok, good, or anything! honestly, i need to straighten my life, but i can't cause of mu DAMN SCHOOL SCHEDULE! JEEEEEZ! i'm soo sick of school, i can't wait till it ends, then the holiday before graduation. but honestly i'm actually not sure i can handle an empty summer. the thought of not going to brazil or england is killing me. and the other thing is that i might be going somewhere where i would do try my best to AVOID! aaaaaaaaaah.

and and to make things worse before the exams, family issues kick in. it's horrible! i don't know how to end it (surely i want the best) and how we would react. i still haven't replied anything cause i'm not sure what to say. i know the truth would be the best, but honestly, the truth is too long and to risky. i'm not sure what to do, maybe i'll just lay down low for these weeks.

after all those drama, the worse comes again. boy problems. i always like him (not sure why) but somehow i don't want him to be my bf, but i really like him. and i hate it seeing that he likes another girl, even though i know he's such a playboy. MAN! why are boys and girls so different? it amazes me, how dumb i can be. how stupid of me to like him. and so now, i'm trying to forget him by trying to like my old crush. accept one problem, phone issues and meeting issues. we never meet and it's so hard to text these days. and to be honest, i can't focus on my studies fully if i don't have anyone to like (VERY WEIRD!). oh well...

i hope everything will workout though.... i need you isa, now! please, if you read this, email mee!

xoxo, nad

how my list is going so far

there are so many things going on, for god damn sakes! from boys to school to first experience. it's going loco, my life. i'll put it in a list so it's easier. and maybe next time i'll explain

1. i cut my hiar --> it became bob
2. i went to the dentist for the second time in my life
3. i had a filter in the dentist
4. i met someone in the dentist, and was mostly surprised
5. exam month is this month
6. none of Brazilians are talking to me
7. haven't talked to isa since foreverrr!
8. i don't think the guy i like, likes me anymore
9. he is texting me back, but his/my phone has issues
10. i can't download ebuddy on my phone
11. haven't met my dad since 2 weeks ago? and maybe make that 1 month?

so far, that's all the things i can remember what's going on, sooo i'll write again when i actually do. see ya!

down with love sounds like the answer

ok, so ATLAST i broke-up with the guy. it was a struggle, because he really didn't want to, and i ended up not replying any of his texts. i know it's mean, but honestly, man, get a life. oh well :)

so now, what's next? not sure. the horrible thing is actually that i have a feeling that i'm still in-like with some of my ex'es. "shoot" i tell my self. because the best bf's ever, i have let them go. so for them to be replaced. yea.. hard. and now, all i can do is act like i'm down with love, when i'm actually, so so not! wonder what i will do? could i keep this costume on? or am i going to burst out, and let my face fall on the ground? damn. this is hard.

yet, while all that love thinking is going on, i still have my exams going on. i'm doing so much better than i did. it's not the best i can do, but atleast i'm going up-up-up, right? well just wish me luck that i can juggle all this about

boy talk

ok, i guess i'm stuck with this guy that i'm not a fan about. and i don't know how to say to him "sorry, you're not the guy" in indonesian and yet a nice way. cause as a friend, he's ok, but as more, UUH! no thank you baby. so i'm not sure when i'll break it to him, but when i do, i'll update you

and to make things worse, i like another guy, since..... FOREVER! i knew this guy for a while now. and firstly, i thought he was a pretty face, then as i got to know him, he was one of the funniest guy ever! he could beat me from being me, it was impressive. and you could say we became close and started to admit things to eachother. we always thought we would end-up being together, and now..... we're no where. he always blames me because i have some friends that are boys. and i blame him because he is secretly dating (he's a womanizer, as you can say). now.... i'm falling hard for him again. why? is he really the one i like? or is he just a pretty face that i adore?? oh god, help

regrets.

well these days i've been seeing so many people doing what they love to do. and damn it, i want that! it's been such a long time i took extra classes that i love and passionate about. those things that i saw was : javajazz, acoustic night, yusuf obelet and so many more (if you don't know what they are, there all music concerts and they weren't being paid to do it. they do it because they love to)

the last time i did extra classes that i was passionate about was around 2 year ago ? it was hip-hop class. god, i miss that. and maybe guitar lessons ? (but my dad was a better teacher than the stinkin teacher was). but now, all i want is to do is do dance lessons and vocal lessons. (i'm not good in singing, but it's so much fun) as i have learned that hip-hop dancing, is crapping hard!! i'm going to take jazz lessons instead. it's so cool ! and maybe rather than vocal lessons, maybe a band? hahaha, dreaming a little high here

oh well, what ever i choose, i just don't want to have this feeling again next year. i just wish this year will end out great and i wouldn't regret anything, again.

the feeling

these days i've been so busy with school i think i need to get out and just go crazy, like i did when ICIB was here. i need to be around people that i can be my self and don't have to try. cause these days i've been trying so hard to be the best, i wanna be free! don't want to try.

i miss so many people, i feel like everyone that i love most has gone somewhere. firstly (mostly) i miss my sister isa and interchange buddies. i love them to death, as you know. then secondly, i miss my dad. i haven't met him for 3 weeks now. and plus with my super-duper extra schedule, not sure when i'll meet him anytime soon. and last but not least, i miss my family in england so muito MUCH! god! it's been 2 years since i've seen them. and everytime i think of them, my eyes go all teary.

but the positive thing is that i'm getting close to people who are amazing and very helping me. and i'm so glad i've met them. and to be honest, i don't think i need any boy right now, just need friends who will be there for me and who will cheer me up when i'm down.

and now, i'm just trying my best to pass my JHS and then keep going. and to get to where i want, i have to work hard. so wish me luck :)

xoxo, nad

ICIB part 2

Saturday, 20 - 12 - 2008
the brazillians arrived in the wrong gate ?? hahahha. but it was fun, cause we (the indonesian) were running to them and it was soo funny. then after the big laugh, and crying (of joy) me, isa, paula, alma, buga, kevin, ricky and daru went to kemang food fest to grab some dinner. we had good sushi (Y) and that night, me and isa couldn't stop talking

Sunday, 21 - 12 - 2008
isa couldn't wake-up, but at 3ish everyone (accept kevin, buga, adin and gabi) went to pim to watch twilight. and actually some friends of mine were in pim too, so i met them too. it was fuun. and plus it was the 3rd time i watched twilight.

Monday, 22 - 12 - 2008
we went to citos to meet up tim, andreas, adin, gabi and some of my friends. then we went to kevin's house for the welcome party. it was very nice to see everyone again. but it was still like separate, but as time went by, we remembered how close we were. that night, fla and indra was like "guys, go home! it's late" and it was like 8 o'clock. but the activity will start the next day. 

Tuesday, 23 - 12 - 2008 
we woke up early to go to waterboom in pantai indah kapuk. it was fuun! a old guy flirted with isa, julia didn't swim at all, some relation started, and i got black-er. and when we got home, let's just say we were SOO TIRED! 

Wednesday, 24 - 12 - 2008
the day before, i had this problem, and i needed to finish the problem in my friends house, so i went there with isa. then around 12 we went to my dad's apartment and spend the day with my dad, marissa, and 4 of my friends. we went bowling and played pool in EX and then walked to grand indonesia to do karoke. it was sooooo muuuccchhh fuuuun !! and after all that fun, my dad dropped me and isa back in my house.

Thursday, 25 - 12 - 2008
marry Christmas people. we had a christmas party at andreases. me and isa were really late, so we missed abit of the fun. we did the monito thing. i was surprised that paula's monito is mee ! hahahaha. but i love my monitoo

Friday, 26 - 12 - 2008
when we heard there would be a gala night, me, isa, adin, gabi, kevin and buga went to pejaten village to find a dress for the brazillians, but couldn't find any. so we went to LUX in kemang, and they found there dress. And so did alma, Paula, Julia and gitt in heritage. we went really early, cause at 12 we (the indonesian) had to drop the brazilians in my house to get ready for the national night. 
as they were getting ready, me, kevin, adin, gitta and andreas went to pejaten village, and found nothing to do. so we ended up in pim eating ice cream and being stupid. but it was fun. and as we were done, we went to kevin's house and while waiting kevin and gitta learned how to dance formally. 
as we went in my house, we were greeted by tim and nick with there brazilian clothes. it was amazing that night. aaaaand after they did there dance, present there presentation, and we all eat. all of the boys asked the girls to be there date to the gala night. some were sweet, and some were, sour. but the night ended out to be a great night!

Saturday, 27 - 12 - 2008
after the national night, we were still tired, but we needed to wake up early to go to our mini camp. in the bus nothing special happened, but we found out that our staff were : kak putut, kak ferdy, kak pya and kak vidy. it was great!
my room mates were : gitta, gabi and paula. and we gossiped allnight! i mean.. ALL NIGHT! we talked mostly about boys-boys-boys. it was amazing. miss you girls

Sunday, 28 - 12 - 2008
the morning, we woke up feeling tired (as usual) and then we made our activity. and then... came.... the night!! it took along time for the girls got ready. it was so cute looking at everyone. then we had to go down the stairs, eat dinner (which the spaghetti was HUUUUUGGGEEE!), the question game, and then the danceee (was it a dance? or more?). and then... lalalalallalalalala, as gitta would say. 
but i would never-ever forget this night, in my lifee!

Monday, 29 - 12 - 2008
early-early-early, gotta say tchau to mini camp, early mornig. and when we got back, everyone was soo tired, i don't think we did anything that day. but then isa started to get really sick, so we brought isa for a check-up, and the doctor said that if she got worse, she has to be hospitalized. 

Tuesday, 30 - 12 - 2008
i woke up, and found that isa isn't her bed. i was shocked. then my mum said that she's in the hospital. so i spent the whole day in the hospital. it was kinda boring, but it made me closer to fla and martin. so that's good.

Wednesday, 31 - 12 - 2008
everyone (accept fla and isa) went to TIS to meet everyone to go to sanggar akar. firstly i was kinda........ not blending in. but as time passed by, i love the kids there. i really would love to work there. it was soo much fun. 
then when i got back home, i found out that isa was back from the hospital, so she could spend the new years with us :) but as people started to come, isa started to get tired. so only woke up for the count down. aaaaand, after the count down, some of us had plans to..........................but i guess it wasn't the right time ?

Thursday, 1 - 1 - 2009
today, everyone was leaving to jogja for the family weekend. but our flight (me, isa and my mum) was the next day. so we took today for a rest at home before going to jogja.

Friday, 2 - 1 - 2009
we woke up early to go to jogja, and i was freakin scared of the plane. luckily isa was there. but when we got to jogja we went to the hotel, but the room wasn't ready yet so we went to mirota. then we went back to the hotel and had a AMARICAN PARTY (cause we had pizza, music, and bikini under in alma's room)! we were planning on having a pool party, but we had some technical difficulties. but it ended up to be a..... interesting party. some where locked in the party. but they always got locked out, right? 

Saturday, 3 - 1 - 2009
the day was shining and we woke up to a nice breakfast in the mercure hotel. then after all the food, the mercure gang went to borobudur, and it was boiling HOT! but, we got some awesome pictures. then after that we all went shopping to mirota, and alma, paula and tante evita went back to jakarta, because they were in jogja since the 1st. 
after the hot day, me, isa, kevin, buga, adin and gabi decided that we wanted to go for a swim at night. so we did, and it was fuun! then we figured out that it was late and we don't know what the parents made plans. but as we found out that the kids could do what ever they want. so we took becak and eat at cobra restorant and look around the city. the becak rides were : gabi & kevin, buga & me and adin & isa. the food was crap, but the ride was excellent! 

Sunday, 4 - 1 - 2009
the last day of jogja, the mercure gang went to taman sari and it was like an oven that made you tired and bored like ass. theeeen we went back to jakarta in the same plane with ricky, daru, nick and siddha. it was funny cause all the boys were sitting at the front, and two people were in business and me and isa were right at the back. it's funny
when we got back to jakarta, i just found out that my best friend was having her birthday party, so me and isa went to her party for a while. isa met afew of my friends

Monday, 5 - 1 - 2009 
isa and i went to point square to exchange money and then went to PIM for..... can't remember why. then we went to the sport activity in kemang futsal. it was.....fun ? to be honest, i didn't play. i was scared, cause everyone were professionals. but it was sooo fun to see everyone play. 
and after all the games, we all went to citos to have a brazilian dinner ! it was....nice? we had a few problems. from nicks food not coming, to all the food running out and things. then after that, before we went home we did photobox (ricky-gitta, nick-alma & tim-me). 

Tuesday, 6 - 1 - 2009
after a full day of sports me and isa thought of having a rest. so we invited alma, paula, daru, ricky, andreas and tim, but they couldn't come. so we went to kevin's house to do the batik thing. i think everyone will agree with me when i say, IT IS HARD! but fun :] and after we made the batik, there was this guy explaining about the batik, and let's say that everyone was holding back, trying so hard not to laugh. but i guess, we failed ? hahaha, sorry mr.... what's your name

Wednesday, 7 - 1 - 2009
all i can say is... DUUUFFAAAN! oh how we've waited for this day. when we met in the meeting point, we were waiting for alma, paula, gitta & julia to come. and when they came, they brought nick's cake (cause he was turning 15). and then we went to dufan.
in dufan so many things happened. from happiness, to sadness, to pissing off, to.......... all! i guess we just needed space, but it ended up to be a weird day.

Thursday, 8 - 1 - 2009
it was my first day of school, so i went to school and isa had a rest at home. while the other girls (alma, pula, gitta & julia) went to safari. but after that the girls (accept alma and paula) had a PHAT party at adin's house. it was called a phat party cause we had so much junk food, and we slept at 3ish ? and we did webcam with andreas, and we were singing & talking about boobs all night. (sorry ndre) but isa and gabi slept first in adin's rooom, then me and julia in adin's guest room, and then alma adin and gitta in the other.

Friday, 9 - 1 - 2009 
we woke up at 8 am, and we actually had to leave at 8 to the meeting point to go to bandung. But we woke up late cause we slept early. so everyone met in the meeting point and they picked us girls up in .... (i can't remember the name). and when we went in the bus, alma told me and gitta "guys, i was the only girl here, HELP!" hahahahaha. it was funny. 
then we headed to rumah mode, and had lunch first there. it was funny cause me and gitta didn't have breakfast and our food wasn't coming, so gitta got angry with the restaurant. then after all the drama, all the brazillians shopped ALOT! and the indonesians didn't get one thing. but it was fun. and then no 11 came otw to Saung Udjo, and we could say that we were scared and avoiding it. HAHA (you know what girls). 
in Saung Udjo we saw amazing performance. it was lovely. then the bus, no 11, new found glory, or DK ? hahahahha. and blablablabla. (honestly, you don't want me to write it, do you?)
and then when we got to dinner in A&W, alma wasn't crying anymore. it was funny ma :] and we found out that the ice cream was over due. but no one got food poisoned. then went back to the meeting point, and everyone slept in the bus. but some were making a gang ? tim, kak lene, nick, could you explain ? 

Saturday, 10 - 1 - 2009 
to be honest, i can't exactly remember what we did before the fairwell. but the fairwell party started around 7 at my house. alot of people was here, and let's just say there was tears. the weird thing is that i didn't cry, i guess i was still in denial. Then straight after all the tears, everyone asked us to change and get ready for daru's dad's party. so we got a dressed-up and we went to pitstop. all night long we danced and had a bunch of fun. it was the first time i saw daru as confident as he was, and to see nick all shy like that. and when we had to go home, it was right when they were singing "selamat malam dunia" damn.
so we went back to my place for a sleepover, and being very hungry and tired. i remember as i got back, i couldn't move from the sofa. and the rest had to make there beds. so the girls slept upstairs and the boys downstairs. some of played twister, some we doing there "thing" on the sofa and bench, and all eat mcdonald. 

Sunday, 11 - 1 - 2009 
we woke up pretty late, but i was the last one waking up. then the leaders found out that there was a demo going on, so we couldn't do the city tour. so they made a conclusion that we all will go to pasaraya and watch a movie, and so we did. We all watched "yes man", accept for the leaders. and things happened in that movie, so, lalalalla
then after the movie we had to meet the parents and leaders in starbucks, but we were a little long cause we were taking legal pictures. but when we arrived to starbucks, we found out that om surya found pão de queijo. while were eating it, i had this thought, and i said out "guys, this is last time we will see eachother till the airport" then i'm not sure what tim said (cause i went to the toilet with alma and puala) to the parents but he convinced them for us all to see eachother the next day. then andreas, tim, alma, paula, kevin, buga, kak indra, went back to my place again to get picked up. 

Monday, 12 - 1 - 2009 
i woke up knowing that tim is sick again, and were al worried. but it was the last day, so we were really sad. everyone went to my house, for a goodbye party, but tim and andreas wasn't there. alot of people were crying, but somehow i wasn't, still in denial i guess. it was awful day. but then at night, me, isa, alma, paula, daru, ricky, kevin and buga went to pim to have sushi grove. it was fun! then me, isa, my mum, tante evita, and tante sisca went to andreas's house to check on tim. and we found out that tim was really sick so he couldn't go to bali.

Tuesday, 13 - 1 - 2009 
LAST DAAAY! SAD DAY! SAD SAD SAD DAY! lets say they cried, i cried, we all cried. it was rainy and cloudy, worst day ever. but then we just knew that when they have the transit from bali to jakarta to brazil we could see them, the tears started to dry off. and knowing that tim and fla was still here, we weren't that sad.


Saturday , 18 - 1 - 2009 
alma and gitta picked the brazilians up from the airport, and brought them to adin's house to see tim and to gather everyone up. but me, kevin and andreas was late. so we went straight to adin's house. 
we had soo much fun with them. all the brazilians went on the becak with there partners. it was fuuun (Y) and all the brazilians were sun burned from bali. what did we do? we talked, laughed and cried. it was a wonderful sad day. 
and all we can say, in the airport, WE CRIED LIKE HELL! and we couldn't stop. that's all i can tell you

what did you do in new year?

at nine everyone from my delegation came to my house and we had a party at my house. firstly, we were kinda separated (the indonesian and the brazilians), cause they were talking in portuguese and we were talking in bahasa. but then the boys (tim, nick and ricky) started to come and join the indonesian. and we started to get together. 

but it was such a bummer, because isa was sick these days so she slept (and paula too) till 10 minutes before the count down. and the other bummer was that there were some un-suspected guest coming (can't tell the details though). 

as we were counting down, i was next to isa and so when it got to "ONE! HAPPY NEW YEARS!" me and isa hugged and i nearly cried. it was sooo sweet! she was like "i am soo glad to spend new years here with you, nad" and then i hugged the others too (can't remember who first). but as i was hugging tim, he gave me a present, and it was a heart-shaped necklace. it was sooooo sweet of him. i love the necklace. 

well then after all the commotion, some people wanted to get away from the crowd and wanted to be alone. so me and some people went upstairs to see the stars and the fireworks. it was amazing!!!................till indra came and said that we needed to go down. damn. so we kinda were pissed since then. 

so now all we can hope is to have a great year :)