20th and 21st

yesterday was sooo funn! i was waiting for the brazilians in the airport for 2 hours, and then gitta's dad said to us that there in the other gate. and we were "really??! ARE YOU KIDDING??!" and then we raaaaaaaan a-cross to the other gate and the funny thing was that all the girls needed to use the toilet, but we raaaaaaaaaaaan! and the suddenly out-of the blue i saw a tall blonde boy with black jacket and t-shirt and i realized that, that was nick! I SCREAMED ! then everyone screamed. and we all (the brazilians and the indonesians) ran to each other and hugged each other. it was so unrealistic. but we had soo much fun. gitta cried, and i was all jumpy. it's a shame that the brazilians were so tired so they didn't say a word. but isa was talkative :)

after we all said hi and took pictures, me, isa, alma, paula, daru, ricky, kevin and buga went to kemang and had dinner there. it was so full and crowded, i think the brazilians were shocked. but it was a fun first impression of indonesia.

today i'm bringing isa to PIM to watch twilight, soo exited ! i think the others will come too. i really miss everyone so so much. and as i was so happy to bring everyone to PIM, something happened. something that really made me sad, the boy i like doesn't like me anymore. it was shocking and really sad. i didn't really care if he likes me or not, but the thing is, because of that he's like all not talking to me. it's pissing me off. he could like just act cool about it and still talk to me, cause i still wanna be friends. soo.. i don't know where this goes. damn him. damn damn him.

so i guess now i'm going to wake isa up and go to PIM. and hopefully, that will take my mind of it. soo wish me luck? 

done and done!

i feel soo happy right now! it's amazing how happy i am even though i still have a bunch of things to be stressed about.

i'm happy mostly cause i'm back with my friends. well i had this fight with my friends. and i honestly thought it was the end of our friendship, but they sat me down and told me what was up. and they were right, so i'm trying my best to change, cause honestly i miss them like hell! and yesterday i went to one of my friends house, and there was my other friends too and, well, i had fun. i don't know about the others, but i really did. wish i could stay longer, but they went out. 

the second reason is that all my exams are done and i got my report card!!! YEY! well, it's not that good actually, it's kinda a bad report card, but i'm not failing just.... not doing my best. so in this second semester i'm going to work my butt off. damn. that'll be "fun".

and the last but not least reason is that tonight i'm picking up my friends from brazil. OMG! I MISS THEM! the last time we met was in july or june, can't remember. hahhha. but i really can't wait. and we're going to have a damn fun time this holiday. buuuuuut, i'm kinda sad too, actually. cause when they come it means i can't see this guy (you know who you are) and i really like him. and he's going back on the 30th or something like that. and by then i'll be busy. maan, i can't believe it's going to end like this. just for your information, you really made my exams week so much fuun! and i always have fun with you, you don't know how much i really like you. 

that's all for now, anyways. i have to have a shower and get ready to go to the salon and then get a bed for isa and then go shopping with mum, then go and pick them up. damn i'm busy today. byeeeeee! 

xoxo, nad

this week

this week has been interesting. full of fun and stress-ness, mostly stress actually. 

so i guess one of the most memorable day ever was yesterday (11 december 2008). and if your the person (you damn know who you are), i just want to say that i had fun :) and can't wait till we meet again?? hahahaha. i guess now your happy. (not mean now) so please stop stop tickling me and try to pop "it", ok? we had a deal you know.

well my exams are half done!!! soooo happy man!! but still have tryouts next week, oh well. they don't count as grades. sooo... yeaaa. a little calm about them. maybe accept for one subject, and the others.... i'll do my best?

wish me luck??

another way to look at life

you know what i just noticed? Life is like a little theater production played by amateur actors and directed by the best director in the world. ending up to be the best dramatic theater production everyone will ever see in there life-time. people will wonder how hard the director had to direct these amateur actors, and how hard these amateur actors had to work hard to look good so noone could see there flaws. but by the end of the show everyone realized all the mistakes and want an anchor, but that's just to much to ask. because actually, they only have one chance to make everything work out. after the production, we clear up the stage and clean up all the mess we made. 

and after all that is done, all we have is just the memory and experience of it all. 

hard to say it out

These days have been interesting. It's hard to explain from where it started and when it can end. from school problems to home problems to just how lonely i sometimes feel. it's all in my head, i think

let's start with school problems. well it's not actually a problem, it's just that these 3 weeks i'll be busy like hell studying, cause i have mid-term exams. i must say, that i am not good at being focus all the time, so it's going to be hard. so the program for the exam is, on the 4th-5th of december i exams, on the 6th-9th i have holiday (idul adha), and back with the exams on the 10th-12th of december. then because i'm in the last year in JHS, there is something called tryout, and that's like an-exam that will be on the 15th-18th of december. then, atlast i get my report card on the 19th! so wish me luck for that? thanks

after all that studying, i thought i could have a rest. but nooooo, i have to host my brazilian friends here for 3 weeks, from the 20th of december - 13th of january. and while there here, i have to go to school too. so i have no idea how to balance everything out. aaaaaaand while there here, my friend from malaysia is coming from the 3rd of december - 30th of december,  so i have all that to juggle !! i have no-idea how i'm going to do this all

well that was the future talk, now let's talk about how i'm feeling (typical girls talk). so it's kinda hard to say how i'm feeling right now actually. cause i'm kinda having a little problem sharing how i feel to people, accept to my ex. and he already knows so much of my problems, so sometimes i miss just talking to him, cause only he will understand. but there is apart of me that doesn't feel right talking to him, because he broke-up with me, and well...... there are more facts, but i don't think i should say. so sometimes i just do a fake smile, or something to get through it all. but one thing that i just wish, that even though we broke-up, i hope it doesn't mean we can't be friends....

so far, that's all from me, lot's of emotions on this blog, soo... yea... see ya :)

NEW ROOM, NEW BLOG, NEW LIFE!

today lots of things happened. let's start with the basics, shall we? 

1. NEW ROOM COLOUR! 

yes, i have repainted my room. it was all pink (ew), and now it's green and purple. i picked those colours, cause gemi and ardi said purple was good, and i wanted to pick blue, but run-out of that. so... i hope people will like me room :)

2. NEW BLOG!

i made this cause everyone seems to have one, and plus, i think it's going to be fun! sorry if my blog sucks 

3. NEW LIFE! 

i just broke-up with my 5 month bf, so it's kinda like... a new life without him. and i think this time it's for-real! sooo.. wish me luck with that ! and i wanna actually focus with school, cause it's my last year in JHS, darn. buuuuuuut, sadly i have a crush on this guy, but i hope it's not distracting me. 

aaaaaaand that's it for now. see yaaa !